transition

There are so many things going on and so many decisions to make that I have to keep reminding myself to focus on what needs to be done right now. Today. I have a feeling that two months from now life will have settled into a new normal, but gosh.....everything right now feels so up in the air. For someone who doesn't really enjoy change very much, there is sure a lot of it coming my way.

On top of all of the decisions and tasks on our never-ending to do list, it's starting to hit me that we are closing this chapter in our family's life. It's kind of sad. We've only been here for three years, but we've made some great friends. The kids have blossomed while we have lived here- Gracie has grown up so much and started school, Luke has changed from a two year old toddler to a bright, happy five year old boy, and Drew....well, gosh, I get sentimental thinking that when we moved here we were only a family of four. Indiana has been wonderful if for no other reason than it brought us Drew!

But as sad as I am about leaving Zionsville, part of me is ready to just get on with it. Ben definitely feels the same way. His mind is already on his new position and he will be there physically after this week. As for me, I feel as if we're in limbo. There are things coming up with friends and at Gracie's school that we'll be gone for, so we can't plan on participating. This is my last week watching little Ella and Luke's last week at his preschool. Our house doesn't feel as much ours as it does the new buyer's. It's a strange transition to feel as if we're not at all in our new place yet, but really not all the way here either.


If the next three weeks of my life is one goodbye after another, I'd rather skip it. Rip off the Band Aid quickly and move on. Not because I don't love our home here, our friends here, our neighbors, our schools, the community, etc, but because I do. It pretty much sucks to think about saying one goodbye after another.


I got a sweet email from Luke's teacher about it being his last week and it brought tears to my eyes. Gracie tearfully told me that she would miss her friends when we moved and I had such a lump in my throat trying to comfort her. I fear it will be hard to keep all of my emotions in check in front of the kids, and I really want to seem completely upbeat about the move in the hopes that they will be too.

I've been trying to make the move as exciting as possible for the kids. They have heard all about the big new backyard and basement play room and they are really excited to see them. They will be sharing a bedroom and they are thrilled about it. (Seriously, they are. I wasn't sure how it would go, but they can't wait! Big relief.) We told them about the new Y near our house and got them looking forward to gymnastics and swim lessons. We have told them that we will get to go hiking in the Smokies as soon as the weather is nicer. We've checked out many books on TN from the library in order to plan some fun weekend outings. We're going to plan our first visit from the grandparents and get that on the calendar so they can have that to look forward to. I'm doing anything I can think of to make this feel good for them.

With so many new, exciting things on our horizon, I just need to focus on these positives and try not to get too bogged down with the worry and stress of the move. Easier said than done......